28.5

So it was my birthday. It started off normally enough, some Facebook messages at midnight and a bit after. While I was on the computer responding to some of the birthday messages, the back door kept banging against the house and I knew I wouldn't be able to sleep with all the noise. So I went to the door, opened the first one, and closed the second door. Then I locked the other door, because I get paranoid and always think I'm going to be murdered in my bed if I leave the back door open. Then when I was just about to go to bed, the doorbell rang. At 3am. So I walked to the back and opened the door for my mom. The only logical question I could think of was "What are you doing?" to which she answered "I don't know" and then I walked away to go to bed. I guess my mom was out celebrating my birthday early...

Then this morning, she came into my room, said happy birthday, and we talked for a while. I feel kind of weird talking about it on my blog, so I'll just say she's having a tough time lately. So she was just telling me all this stuff, and I vaguely remember saying "I know it's my party, but uh... you can cry if you want to."

I'm not the best at consoling people. All I'm good at is hugging and listening. But I never know what to say to make someone feel better.

Okay, now on to...AMERICAN IDOL.

I didn't watch the guys last night, which I'm starting to think was a mistake. It looked really intense, and the judges were crying, and I'm kind of sad I missed it now. But no matter. It was Top 12 night. And the people voted off were...

Katelyn. I AM SO UPSET ABOUT THIS. I thought she was doing WAAAY better than Paige. Stupid Americans voting for the wrong person. GRAWRFSC.

Todrick. I didn't see the performance yesterday, so I can't say for sure if I'm upset about this. But I don't think he was on my top 3 guys list. Still, listening to him performing Somebody to Love tonight... not so great.

Alex Lambert. I'm not ashamed to say that when Andrew made it instead of Alex, I did a little fist pump. I mean they're both awesome, but I'm so Team Andrew.

Lilly. I was not expecting that. At all. I think she was way better than Katie. Again, America... you suck.

Now that we're in the Top 12, I have a top three/four.

Andrew Garcia.
Tim Urban. I know he's not the greatest and he probably won't make it, but I hope he does.
Didi Benami. She is now my first choice for the girls. As great as all the other ones are, I'm hoping Didi will go far.
I kind of want to say my fourth is Michael Lynche but I don't know. He reminds me a lot of Reuben. I think Reuben beat Clay Aiken, right? I don't remember. But either way, I haven't even heard Reuben's name since that year, and I'm kind of scared that the same will happen to Lynche. So I don't want to like him too much. We'll see.

I think by the time I'm writing this, I had about 50 notifications on Facebook and a lovely video on youtube. Thank you to every single one of you <3

Today's song is a good one. It's an Ingrid Michaelson song because I love her music so much and I don't think I've ever posted one of her songs before (which is odd).

I present to you my current favorite song by Ingrid Michaelson: The Chain

I love love love her. Have a lovely Friday. And thank you once again to every single one of you for making my 18th special <3

Love you all,
xx