LOL So I posted the last two days of Week 4 as week 2. And I also forgot to post 4.06, but it was a draft. It's up now, so go back for your Britney fix! lol I was basically like, why did they BOTH skip over 4.06? Silly geese. But no, that was my bad. Good stuff.
So as Alex and Shosh know... Today, I decided to quit my job. It was for a multitude/plethora/cornucopia/vast number/etc of reasons that I decided this. But the main one: I'm not happy.
I haven't been happy for a while. I take no pride in the job I do and it's just mentally exhausting. Because of this, I don't work hard enough. I have to take a deep breath before I start work and prepare myself for the nine hours ahead. I am bored, I'm not challenged, I just want to sit in the back room and cry sometimes. It takes all my energy to stay standing and smile. So I've been thinking about quitting for a while but had no idea where to go/what to do. I feel like if I leave my job, I'll just get another crappy retail job I'm not happy with and that's as far as I'll ever go. I'm afraid of failing.
Today, Iram got mad at me because she feels like she's doing all the work. Because basically, she is. I had no excuse to give her, because even though I'm worn out and everything, nothing I said would have made it okay that I wasn't doing my job. So I said nothing. But basically, she gets mad at me at work. And that affects us at home. So she spends more time out with Jeni and Courtney, and more time ignoring me. Truth be told, I'm just lonely. Which makes it worse. It basically means my only human interaction is Robert. So when Robert comes into the store, I'm just glad to have someone to talk to. So I go to the bank with him. I go for a walk. I go on break with him. Iram, in turn, gets more upset because I'm never in the store.
Robert was the manager at my store before I was, and he knows exactly how I feel about all this. So I'm grateful to have him to talk to. I just made up my mind, once and for all, that when I get back from Ottawa, I'm going to look for a new job. And I'm going to leave. My goal for the end of March is to be at a different job, and my goal for April is to be happy.
Hailey is moving up in March. And that's exciting like you would not believe! I have to wait two weeks (ELEVEN DAYS) to go to Ottawa, then Hailey is moving in, about three/four days after I get back. So hopefully, human interaction. Someone to talk to. Someone to hang out with. Someone to do stuff with. I just miss what my life was like when I first started working at International. Iram and I were best friends, now it seems like she can barely tolerate me.
Anyways, I've complained enough. That's what is going on in my life. Today's song is going to be This Year by the Mountain Goats. Although, truth be told... eleven days. Alex, if you like them, I'll send more stuff your way. You too, Shosh.
Ottawa: 11
Hailey: 31
xx
So as Alex and Shosh know... Today, I decided to quit my job. It was for a multitude/plethora/cornucopia/vast number/etc of reasons that I decided this. But the main one: I'm not happy.
I haven't been happy for a while. I take no pride in the job I do and it's just mentally exhausting. Because of this, I don't work hard enough. I have to take a deep breath before I start work and prepare myself for the nine hours ahead. I am bored, I'm not challenged, I just want to sit in the back room and cry sometimes. It takes all my energy to stay standing and smile. So I've been thinking about quitting for a while but had no idea where to go/what to do. I feel like if I leave my job, I'll just get another crappy retail job I'm not happy with and that's as far as I'll ever go. I'm afraid of failing.
Today, Iram got mad at me because she feels like she's doing all the work. Because basically, she is. I had no excuse to give her, because even though I'm worn out and everything, nothing I said would have made it okay that I wasn't doing my job. So I said nothing. But basically, she gets mad at me at work. And that affects us at home. So she spends more time out with Jeni and Courtney, and more time ignoring me. Truth be told, I'm just lonely. Which makes it worse. It basically means my only human interaction is Robert. So when Robert comes into the store, I'm just glad to have someone to talk to. So I go to the bank with him. I go for a walk. I go on break with him. Iram, in turn, gets more upset because I'm never in the store.
Robert was the manager at my store before I was, and he knows exactly how I feel about all this. So I'm grateful to have him to talk to. I just made up my mind, once and for all, that when I get back from Ottawa, I'm going to look for a new job. And I'm going to leave. My goal for the end of March is to be at a different job, and my goal for April is to be happy.
Hailey is moving up in March. And that's exciting like you would not believe! I have to wait two weeks (ELEVEN DAYS) to go to Ottawa, then Hailey is moving in, about three/four days after I get back. So hopefully, human interaction. Someone to talk to. Someone to hang out with. Someone to do stuff with. I just miss what my life was like when I first started working at International. Iram and I were best friends, now it seems like she can barely tolerate me.
Anyways, I've complained enough. That's what is going on in my life. Today's song is going to be This Year by the Mountain Goats. Although, truth be told... eleven days. Alex, if you like them, I'll send more stuff your way. You too, Shosh.
Ottawa: 11
Hailey: 31
xx
Of course I love them! But HMV doesn't sell their CDs so my goat pen in the mountains is empty. Paps now that I have a credit card I'll do some online shopping?
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